I grew up in the 80s and 90s. I had no queer elders to learn from in my circles. Until I was already an adult, I didn't know a single queer person who had been an adult during the AIDS crisis, let alone anyone who came of age before it.
Now I do, but they are so few and those who could have told me stories of our community before AIDS are dying due to age and health issues and the neglect of the medical community.
I would be a very different person, had I known anyone like me who was truly an elder while growing up. Even who was my parents' age.
Now I'm an historian and I teach this because our elders are not here to tell their own stories.
And now I'm hearing that all of these people were wrong to exist from young folks whose very capacity to be out safely at all comes from the sweat, tears, and literal blood of people whose stories I will never hear firsthand.
My gods, friends, you have a chance we never did and yet it's being wasted on some misguided notion of respectability while Marsha and Sylvia and Storme and Larry and Harvey and Gilbert and Leslie and thousands of others are being sanitized or outright rejected and I'm heartbroken.
We say Queer because we used to also be faggots and dykes and those words, too, were weapons people took and reclaimed as badges of honour that said, "yeah? And? I am just what you call me and I'm proud of that!"
Our spaces weren't just for the people who passed and the "just like us" respectable gays because everybody was in the line of fire and goddamn, yes, this has always been a point of infighting and contention, but we had to stand together to defend the freaks and the kinksters and the leather daddies....
And AIDS didn't give a damn which category you were in and the Powers That Be let it rage because any dead gay was a good dead gay. I am not kidding...please, study the AIDS crisis to understand why some of us call it a passive genocide.
Silence=Death
And I'm so tired of death.
So those of us who see all the red flags, we know we can't be silent, because just look at the US right now and the torrent of state legislation that will drive trans people to suicide. Silence will kill and not nearly enough "allies" are screaming to protect our community and to tell the most marginalized people in our community that they matter and are loved and don't deserve this shit.
Silence=Death
Still
Please, friends, learn the heartbreak and joy and rebellion and the tower of strength that is this community and it's history.
We need each other.
We need the freaks, the queers, the folks who name themselves slurs and colours and who resist with all their hearts and we need the people who look "just like everybody else" with us, too, because together we can make it so we no longer need the reminder of that three word phrase we saw on posters of a pink triangle something close to 40 years ago.